Here, in this dark weathering hole I call an apartment, I live quite lazily - never getting up from my computer, unless things of great importance happen to creep within my mind. How I wish I could throw it all away, when I have to work my ass of. People will say: such is life; get on with it; how simple we are just to truly follow that path; most of us anyway.
From the glimmer of my computer, I stare around my room. (For the first time in many weeks, I would have to say). It is dark, mould pours down from the seeping plaster around the roof, kitchen hasn't been cleaned in months, and my room is a literal bat-cave where I slumber.
Your mind isn't supposed to be drowned in such an experience. It needs presence, life, and light. The works, I would say. But I don't need that, I have my friends; they stay with my whenever I need them. I can hear their small chiming voices thrive in my mind, they are glowing with friendship - it is all I truly need.
This will be my last entry, dear computer. For I fear, my mind is slipping away. It's drowning in a sea of lurid liquid that smells of blossoms. Yet where does such a smell come from? I can't tell. Good-bye.
A small, sparkling object bolted from a mountainside-like form of dirt laundry, deep in the recess of my bedrooms corner. Its little legs flickered like a candles flame; small footprints burned into the carpet, yet somehow disappeared after a few seconds. It hopped up my desk and sat on a stack of messy CD's next to my hand.
"You still writing this weird thing, Wilhelm?" it said. Its voice crackled like a sparkler from a fluorescent sphere, shining like an industrial light bulb.
"Yes Cotzl. I am still writing. It helps me remember." I said, waving my hand in a vague motion while still pinning my grey-sacked eyes towards the computers glow. Cotzl got to its feet, picked up a pen with his glowing arms, stabbed a few times on a piece of paper at its feet, then began to draw.
I barely noticed the glowing figures intentions beside my arm, but I looked down with a queer stare. He dabbled a near perfect circle around itself, close to six centimetres in diameter. Another was soon placed another centimetre towards the centre.
"What are you doing?" I said, now focusing properly to its actions. It stopped briefly, cocked the pen on the paper and looked up at me.
"To be honest, I wouldn't have a clue. But, I thought I'd try and summon us a new friend." Cotzl said, continuing on with its drawing. Lines were being shaped and curved. A seal of sorts was being shaped, as far as I could be bothered to remember.
"The large triangle with the thick black lines running through it, ending in a sort of circle at the bottom. What is it?" I asked in an almost muffled groan.
"It's a seal, Will," it said without looking up. "It's used in various cults and other various things." I simply gave an eccentric hum, looked back at the screen and browsed the interwebs once again.
A few minutes perhaps had passed, but Cotzl had finished whatever he was trying to create. It was now sitting within the circle, cross-legged.
"Are you going to summon this new friend of ours now, Cotzl?" I asked, with my hand sagged under my chin.
"I am. But, it still needs something to work." Cotzl's flaring arm smoothed to a fine triangular point. "Mind if I take your finger for a second?"
"What? Why do you need my finger?" I asked, but slowly dragged my hand lazily towards it.
"Oh, just some blood. We can't have it running away now. It'll sort of bind it to you." Cotzl said, while swiftly pricking the tip of my index finger. A cold pain rushed down it. A cold crimson berry poised itself on my fingertip. Cotzl quickly flicked it off with its butterknife hand and slapped it on a clearing within the circle.
"Damn, I didn't say do it!" I shouted, sucking the tip of my finger. The flickering creature shrugged.
"Not much point in stopping now." It said. It inhaled deeply; a strong flare of light swallowed a small portion of the room. "Please, keep your beak shut while I try and coax it out." Cotzl pointed a candlewick finger at me.
"Whatever. Just don't get yourself and most importantly, me killed, during this thing."
"You question my expertise on these things?" it hissed. I looked with a stooped eyebrow.
"I do. But, go ahead. At least I'll get a laugh out of it."
"Aha. Just keep it shut while I chant. Then we'll see who's laughing!" Cotzl said angrily.
Cotzl breathed something I couldn't understand. It hummed and chirped in no understandable way. The circle glowed on the paper, burning away at the edges and sparking off into the distance of the dark foreboding room. My sight stung as flickering ash whipped around my face, burning it slightly. The fiery figure was a deep, pure blue. The air around it shrivelled, quavered in its heat. The heat was so intense; I threw my bare arm over my face, rolled away in my computer chair and took a far off gander. My room was ablaze in light, more so than it has ever been. The mould on my ceiling browned in the flame, scorching itself into the paint.
"Stop!" I yelled, "You're going to burn shit down!" I couldn't do anything, as I witnessed in a bizarre haze, Cotzl be seized within a ball of fire, writing with emerald glyphs that skipped, bounced along the floor like welding sparks, then climb and burn themselves around the walls and floor. I clambered onto my shaky feet that I haven't used properly in ages, and drove through the heat towards Cotzl.
"You have to stop!" I screamed, trying to reach into the piercing light that blinded me. But I was suddenly knocked onto my back and pinned.
"I can't you bloody fool. Once it's begun, it must be finished!" Cotzl murmured from within the sphere of flame. My room flickered with flame. My bedspread was set alight; most cotton and polyester materials were ablaze already. Fancy that, I was going to be burned alive, I thought to myself.
The light diminished slightly, gusts of lukewarm air gushed over me. Objects toppled and smashed in the hurricane forces. My door was bucked away and splayed from its hinges. Suddenly, a silent calm swallowed up the moment. I picked myself up, and then looked around. It was pitch black, except for a simmering burn in my desktop that glowed red-hot. A small candle flame figure climbed out from the back of the computer desk. It waved.
"What the fuck was that!" I screamed, "You've completely blown everything to hell!" I gripped my hair and stomped back and forward in the trashed room.
"Yes, but there might be someone you'd like to introduce yourself to first." Cotzl said, pointing in my direction.
"Why the fuck would I want to do tha-" I said, being tapped on the shoulder. I turned and looked down the snout of something. I screamed and stumbled back, falling over a chair.
"Hope I didn't scare you." It said, trudging forward with wolf like claws.
"Just, stay the fuck back!" I waved my hand spastically.
"That's no way to treat our new friend!" Cotzl growled. He hopped off the wrecked desk and landed near my shoulder. The creature offered a muscled claw. I swatted it away, stumbled to my feet and backed into the wall. My heart was pounding furiously; it was if I was having a heart attack.
"His only trying to be friendly," Cotzl, said, crossing its arms. "The least you could do is say hello." I breathed something pathetically, that may have been a simple hello.
"Are you afraid?" The newly summoned creature said from a fleshy mass of vibrating muscle, where a mouth should have been. Smoke and ash still wafted off its hulking shape that barely resembled anything humanoid. Its six turquoise eyes stared, unblinking at me. It adjusted a dark purple frill from around its head and throat and folded it away around its neck.
Was I afraid? Of course I was afraid. More so, scared the skeleton straight out of my body.
"No, I'm not afraid of you." I said, backing off from the wall. "Hello, I guess."
"Thank you for the greetings." He said. He adjusted the door slightly, but it came off its rickety hinges and slapped down on the ground behind him.
"I am Alzanar. A pleasure to meet you." Alzanar said, reaching out the same muscled claw as before. I dared my hand to reach in, but I hesitated as I had done so. His flesh felt vile: calloused and moist. I felt ill, as if the life was being drained through my arm.
"I'm Wilhelm." I wailed embarrassingly. Then, I blacked out.